good riddance

o beivrit - baruh sheptaranu!

so it took me one go-girl-power-Tabitha (my new american friend), and one ugly conversation, to fully eradicate Christopher from my life. and the proffessional i am in doing it, i'm just following the routin again - erase telephone numbers, email addresses, digital photos... i bought new posters for my walls today, instead of the stupid one he gave me. I was so excited, it's a huge world map and a poster of Amelie movie :) of course i'm the biggest of the drama queens, so he doesnt even know yet that we're been there done that. the conversation took place on the night before he flew home. so when he's back in a few days, i've already prepared my speach: "here's your poster and CD's. i wanna have my books, my pillow and my spare key back. and here's 5€ because i'm keeping the wash drier". Allison said she feels like a devorced child, when i said that there will be no more b1 nights for us http://www.b1-konstanz.de/galerie/pic-show.php?gid=46&id=1968
so long my bad habits, so long Christopher, Camels, awefull night clubs in the middle of the week, and my british vocabulary. "fags" turns back to cigarettes, and "as well" is shorter as "too".
welcome me, say hi to socializing again, carrying a dictionary in my back pocket when i go out, so that i can read the menu properly and order the weirdest dish (did i tell u i ate risoto with strawberries in Florenz?!), learning german proverbs, watching bad european cinema in the library, getting extatic from all the different berries in the lebaneese grocery shop but being a little bit afraid to speak hebrew when i go there with tomer, and when he doesnt buy anything saying he doesnt sell himself for money, i still go there because berries are beyond national conflicts; telling stories how i was a hero in the army serving in Ramallah, getting excited when russians recognise my Moscow accent and doing grocery-shopping-therapy when i'm sad because apparently it works just as good as clothes shopping, but is cheeper, more usefull and sends u into less guilt trips... well maybe a little, when i still cant finish all the chocolate i bought 3 weeks ago and it starts turning to color white... i wish that listening to Hava was on this list, but i bought a new CD player (which in german is called "tze de spieler", but it's better than "de fau de" which stands for DVD) and it was so cheep that it doesnt play my burnt CD's - no, correction, CD's burnt on Gruber's computer! which might mean i will not sing "haomnam..." for 6 months !!! now my mental health in danger!
and another one - i'm back on blog ;) for best and worst, because maybe it would be better if i wasnt midnight blogging when i have classes tomorrow, and i still have to rollerblade home, and what's even more troubling is that i dont have a slightest idea WHAT are the classes, or more important WHEN... but blogging is healthy - 10 vitamines, no fat.
so yes, i feel a lot better now, i can even say that i'm happy again :) i'm still confused a lot with my studies, because i dont know what courses to take, since i dont have to do anything, and it stresses me up a bit, but that's a positive stress, and besides that i'm all happy :))
so that unfortunate issue is closed in this post, meaning i dont want to talk, think, remember about it again. the name will not be mentioned ever again, and no further details will be donated. no reference whatsoever to the issue as a whole in emails or in future posts will be given.
but this harsh means do not surprise those who went with me through this routine so many times... i'm only happy i made it out of this swamp, and that it lasted only 2 moths, and that i found ppl here that support me so much.
ok, gotta catch some sleep. i hope i will not suffocate at night because i dry my clothes in my room and now it smells like detergent...
luv u all

and so that u know, every pen and paper letter i get, i hang on the wall, as well as pictures and all other sorts of memorabillia... so that u know

küßen