following my conversations with some deligent blog readers it appears that the story about cristopher needs further elaboration... (on this occasion - thank u my deligent readers for conversing with me and for being deligent!)
so...
cristopher and i are good now. i'm really happy about the way the things turned out because it seems that i'm managing to keep one nice healthy relationship with him now. first of all it stopped being just him me and allison all the time. especially it stopped being him and i. i started to be me again and now i socialize like there's no tomorrow ;) so i'm always busy, i always got things to do , places to go , people to c. i meet so many interesting ppl here, virtually from every country of the world (how about Baskinland ?!) most of them are instant friends for a week, but there's a certain charm in it. the secret is that when u have enough weekly friends, u live under the impression that u have many good friends, becaue when u need someone u always have someone, doesnt matter much whom... though we're still kinda best friends, him and i... guess just because he's not as random as the others, cause we already know each other for a while. Tomer is preocupied with his girl friend, so i dont see much of him.... though i c much more of her, cause we do classes together. she's a real sugarbabe.
anyway, what i realized about christopher is that there's no more to him than meets the eye. i always thought that he puts walls infront of me that i, no matter what, need to break. so i would try to get closer and closer, which only drew him further and further. but apparently, there are no real walls, and it's just as close as it gets. the key sentence that he told me was "u demand of me more than my gf does". it made it pretty much clear that my fantasy that his girlfriend must have another Christopher is unreal. he also said that i'm very different from his friends at home, which also gets along perfectly well with that he cant answer my needs of closure. he said that i'm trying to make him treat me like my friends at home, and he cant do that. well... i'm happy i'm not english i maybe dont understand Monty Pyton jokes but i'm highly qualified in hugs and kisses, i can fake my orgasms in public and i dont think that saying "fuck u, u fucking fuck!" is anything rude (just because i obey my home made rule that cursing on languages that are not your mother tongue doesnt count).
so i'm gradually getting used to the idea that some ppl dont work like me. unbelievable but true... (where were i when yoav tried to teach me this in the course of the past few years?... i should listen more to my gay friends! ... on a second thought, no offence roy baby, but probably following the truck that goes to rishon is not always a good idea... ;)
ok, i'm done, cristopher is yesterday's news.